hit a hard rock

well I've been stuck at my weight but still working out.. I've been trying to work out everyday well i started today i made a promise to my self  that i would work out 14 days straight then take a day break and that I can do anything for 2 weeks straight and start getting back on the wagon. I have been battling with my self and my depression. stress and anxiety. I miss my baby boy so much and some days its all my energy to get out of bed and i know thats not a excuse but its my reality I have been really watching what i eat and drink lately and i am feeling better I'm still 2-3 lbs from my first goal my goal is to be there at the end of these two weeks but i know i can do it I had my hubby take pics of me so i can see the results as they happen instead of not noticing them  and becoming discouraged. I go back for new bloodwork beginning of march to see if my potassium and liver enzymes are okay now.. so i have 2 weeks to clean the bad foods and only eat healthy food and exercise daily and see if that makes the difference :) well i think thats all for this blog :) t


P.S take it from me take care of yourself even when your pregnant i use to be incredibly healthy and thin and i thought i wouldn't even have the issues i am now 

pictures of the change

This was Aug 6 2012 at his funeral

 3 weeks Post partum ( aug 15this)

 September still a lil belly hadn't started working out yet 

pictures since I had cameron July 31 2011 and my body changing :-/ I wish it was more but this way is the only want I can see changes

New program/shakeology/diet

Ok so 2 days ago I started a 30 day workout and eating better I had gotten back into a lot of bad habits like drinking soda and not drinking my water ... eating out ect... we'll 2 days ago i decided i needed to quit if we wanted to ttc and have another baby this year.. not sure when we are going to start yet... I would like to lose 10 lbs min before we do though. So today I am going to go shopping for fresh veggies and start making bags of healthy meals so all i have to do it take it out and put it in the crock pot. we are only buying fresh stuff now no pastas or canned food... fresh veggies fruits and protein chicken and pork staying away from red meat since it makes me sick. I will log again once I finish week one of my new workout :) 5 more days I am taking sundays off of doing this workout and doing zumba.... I want to keep moving so I can lose the most the fastest :) and the healthiest way I also ordered shakeology and am going to be buying a protein shake mix today as well so I will only be eating "real food " at dinner and 2 small Healthy snacks a day :) I will post when I start shakeology!

also i went to the dr and had my thyroid checked and will find out results soon. also was referred to a ent for my ear but that is on my other blog :)
thats all for now how y'all have a wonderful day :)

god bless